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As my mom and sister can attest to, I essentially loathe clothes shopping. I can remember having my heart broken (this is nearly 5 years ago if not more by now), my sister trying to cheer me up by doing some retail therapy. However, my weight/size was so big at that point I couldn’t find anything to fit me to even try on. So I ended up coming home, laying on my bed, and sobbing. It was brutal.

I’ve been fairly “lucky” so far that with the weight-loss I’ve had enough clothes stuffed in the back of my closet that, so far, I haven’t had to buy anything new. These were all clothes that I purchased (now keep in mind I purchased these on super-sale or second hand), then gained too much weight so they didn’t fit. But instead of getting rid of them (phew!) they’ve just been hanging in my closet. Clothes shopping, to me, is exhausting more mentally than anything. Let’s not get started on those mirrors and horrible lighting either, okay?

Anyway, so I recently decided to join the YMCA so I could start swimming. However my last suit pretty much fell apart so I needed to get a new one. I found some on the Wal-Mart website, but ended up heading into the store just so I could try it on. Oh my gosh. I kept pulling, the suit creeping higher, more pulling, more creeping and it still didn’t cover my chest. What the heck? So I peeled it off, slightly disheartened but meh it was one store. I did some more online scouring to find that Torrid and Lane Bryant have a pretty decent selection of both one and two piece suits but my goodness the prices gave me some “sticker” shock. I didn’t want a suit made of gold…I recalled hearing about Target revamping their plus size section so I decided to check it out online. There were some GREAT options that were totally affordable and you can see if they have your size at your nearest store. So this morning, post church, I headed to the closest Target. Grabbed all of the swim tops (I already own a swim skirt) that I liked and a one piece that was WAY cute and marched into the dressing room. I tried on 2 different tankini’s and ended up buying the first one I tried on. It was $30. Even standing there with my socks on, horrible lighting, and mirror I was like dang, I look cute in this.

I have to remember not to let the sizes get to me. Not only do we have to deal with the mental part of weight-loss but my gosh those sizes will drive you insane! Sizes can vary incredibly based on designer, where the garment is made, fabric and more. So maybe we just stop focusing on size and just focus on what makes us feel beautiful.

Tomorrow it will be 6 weeks since I had gastric bypass surgery, I have a class with the nutritionist and I get to start incorporating some other foods. This 6 weeks has gone by so incredibly fast, I still feel like I should be losing weight at a faster pace but I also know part of that is my fault because I’m definitely not working out as much as I should be. I just need to kick my butt into gear and get it done. So tomorrow is Monday, I’m putting myself back on a schedule and on a workout routine. I had my insides rearranged in order to get myself healthier so now it’s time I do my part.

Enjoy the rest of the weekend!