I’m definitely thisclose to tears. I keep thinking about the “worst” outcome even though I have a great surgeon and I know this is what I want to do. But I keep thinking, what happens if I die? I’m not worried about where I’ll end up but I’m terrified for my mom and sister. I’m my mom’s primary caretaker and she would be devastated. She’s already been through so much in her life and I don’t know….I’m freaking out.:(

I have a great support system, my family are behind me but oh my gosh I’m an emotional mess.